Recovery takes time
A caveat to the following discussion is the idea that even with the right conditions recovery is a protracted process that can take years. As can be seen by the following, the participants emphasised this point:
· It was a journey [and it] took some time to get it right.
· It's taken me years.
· You're just learning as you go along…
Personal crisis and significant life change as turning points
The participants gave detailed examples of personal crises they experienced and how the experience initiated or gave them the motivation for the recovery process. For reasons of confidentiality the details of these experiences will not be provided, but the point that a crisis can initiate recovery is recorded. As one participant explained:
· When I went through that stuff, it was something I made a commitment to myself: That I would never, never, ever, ever walk down that road again.
There were also examples of positive life changes initiating recovery, such as finding a supportive partner and doctor, as one participant explained:
· It's very hard. It takes a lot of determination, and you need some feeding and fortunately my feeding came from [remarrying] again. My current wife, and my doctor who at that time I was seeing weekly, he was just encouraging. Just straight out simple, non-scientific encouraging. And away I went.
For others, it was the responsibility of providing the best emotional environment for their children, for example:
· What every parent wants is to know that they... have done... the best thing by their kids. I want to emphasise that, you know, that's probably one of my driving forces.
responsibility for recovery
A key factor mentioned by all of the participants in relation to initiating and sustaining the recovery process is that of taking personal responsibility for dealing with their illness. As seen by the following, without self-responsibility recovery is seen as unlikely to take place:
· Look, you should go to all the amount of lectures, and medication and psychiatrists, and courses. Yet till you are ready to accept something in your own mind, then it just won't work.
Accounts were provided of how previously participants had ‘given away’ their sense of control to others, for example:
· ... You know until I had my own hand there directing; you know all the other times... I gave my control over to the partner I was with, or the parents... The worst I was at was when I let other people [take control].
At the core of personal responsibility is the idea of ‘owning’ the illness, for example:
· Put it this way, I owned the stuff that was my stuff.
Self-control incorporated taking advice from others, for example:
· I made my own decisions about myself, and my life. And she'd give me some guidance at times, and different suggestions, and things like that. But it was always my choice.
Although discussed in full in findings published elsewhere (McGrath et al., 2007), it is important to note that participants stated that the mental health system does not adequately support this healing direction. For example, one participant who had been involved in the system for over six years with 15 hospital admission before any health professional gave advice about the importance of taking personal responsibility for recovery, stated:
· But one of the major criteria I feel, and I feel even more strongly now, is that the system has to be encouraging towards that [taking personal control of illness].
It was seen as possible for a sense of personal responsibility, albeit limited, to even be initiated during a psychotic phase of the illness, for example:
· I guess when you're deep in a psychosis there’s not a lot you can do... But you have to come to a bit of an insight that you're unwell.
At the core of the process of taking self-responsibility is that of confronting and accepting the fact of one’s mental illness, as one participant explained:
· And being a real to the fact that it exists... and finding a way to think of it differently.
Fear is an emotion that can block such a process, as one participant expressed:
· … Sheer fear of it... I guess it's something that you've got to face and accept. And you know, I think... the reason I was able to do it, was because I wasn't afraid of losing anything.
It was noted that the act of confronting the illness helps to control it, for example:
· ... If you're going through something, handle it. Sit down if you have to. Handle it, and it goes away.
Self awareness and insight
Participants indicated that self-awareness and insight are essential in the process of confronting the illness in order to initiate and sustain recovery.
· ... And it's using that word… which is quite vital within recovery: 'insight'.
As one participant explained, honesty with the self is a key aspect of insight:
· And what I have to do is I have to get really honest with me.
The process is active and requires ongoing focus and attention, as the following example of mood control indicates:
· I've been told... that I have a quite an insight into my moods. I don't let it get out of hand. I could bring it back down. I think I'm very aware of my mind.
Accepting the limitation imposed by the illness is also seen as a part of insight, for example:
· I'm not over-confident. I don't want to be that. But I'm… more understanding than ever before that I still have to be mindful that there is… an inherent weakness. But it's not a handicap.
An important point made by the participants is that insight is not just restricted to the illness but must embrace an exploration of the whole person. As one participant explained:
· So often I did a lot of my own logical thinking around, or rational thinking around some of the experiences I'd get on a daily basis... So I guess the thing that is going to help me along the way is working on myself, my human self. “Okay, that's just part of my illness.”
self-forgiveness – getting over the mental illness label
Self-forgiveness is an important part of accepting the limitations of the illness, for example:
· You look at some actions and behaviours that you do when you're ill, and they just don't fit into your self perception. But that's hard to accept. And that's where, if people want to get better, they have to… cut themselves some slack, and then forgive themselves for not acting the way they wish they'd acted all the time.
Along with self-forgiveness, there needs to be a sense of self-acceptance, for example:
· And I used to lie a lot, about who I was, and because I... didn't feel like I was up to par with everyone else. And now it's like, 'Here I am, if you don't like me, that's fine'.
An important part of this process is the act of letting go of the illness label. Participants talked about how prior to recovery they had related to others through their ‘illness label’ but had to let go and embrace a sense of self-respect, for example:
· And I really… wanted to be me…I didn't want to be known as ‘the poor little schizophrenic; be nice to her because she's ill’.
As another participant explained, it is the act of redefining the self:
· ... Recovery to me is about understanding, and getting familiar the sense of self that I... had given away to somebody else to define, so redefining that for myself.
Information on all aspects of the mental illness was noted to be of considerable assistance for the recovery process, as one participant expressed:
· ... Helpful information, I'm really loving it... there are concepts that are really helpful, and there are others that are really useless.
Information about how other ‘consumers’ deal with recovery was seen as particularly helpful, for example:
· I do think another thing is that sharing information between consumers or advocates does help. Because I think that information helps you. Yes, and it's not something any professional would ever teach you.
Many of the participants indicated that they actively read a wide range of books to seek out the information they needed, for example:
· I read a lot. I read stuff on the internet. I've got a folder full of stuff that I read over and over again, trying to find some similarity to what I experience.
People support – a safety
The support of others was noted as vital to recovery, but a caveat is that it is important to be selective about the people to include in the support circle, as one participant explained:
· But I actually found out that it's actually better to have many people in your life, [more] than just one in particular, but also be cautious and careful about who you have in your life.
In particular, it was seen as important to be cautious about sharing the diagnosis with others, for example:
· I chose to disclose my diagnosis to about half a dozen people, the range of people I felt safe with.
successful for moving forward
The participants discussed a wide range of strategies they found successful in assisting with their recovery. Focusing on aspects of their experience that they could control was one such strategy, as one participant explained:
· I guess I break it down to things that you have control over, and things that you don't.
The strategy associated with taking control is to view obstacles with an openness of what to learn from the experience, for example:
· ... It's not seen as obstacles, but it is: ‘Now what can I learn from this…’
An important part of the focus on control is goal setting, as one participant explained:
· I started to set goals. I started to set goals of things I wanted to do.
Another strategy is to not dwell on negative thoughts or problems as this will re-enforce an inward focus, but rather to look outside the self:
· And try not to dwell - if you find out you've got problems or anything, have a look around you. Don't dwell on what it is. Dwelling on your problems, some people might shut off, become reclusive, sit on a lounge all day smoking. If you dwell on negative thoughts, or… irrational thinking, then it's going to consume you.
Engaging in activities that affirm the person’s strength assists with a positive focus, for example:
· I used to swim a lot, and I was a fairly good swimmer. And that was another space, that's kind of where I knew I was okay. Because I had to have something I could work with, something I could do, something I could change… If you're just flat with schizophrenia… it's kind of like almost a death sentence, you know?
This may include any diversional activity, such as learning a new skill, for example:
· Diversional [activities], taking my mind off my problems, onto more positive stuff. Like learning new skills, like playing tennis, or planning.
For some, their employment or studies helped affirm their positive sense of self and provided diversional activities.
Where possible, the participants found it important to keep in touch with positive feelings about the future, as one participant explained:
· ... I'll lay down here when I'm going through a hard time. I know that things are going to get better, and I'm going to have good times again. I had this sense that I'd get it right again.
Finding a meaningful perspective can re-enforce the
positive, for example:
· … I think the only thing I know... is that some of the
people in my life that have helped me unpack it in ways that help me create
Looking back at the progress made also helps to affirm the positive, for example:
· It's wonderful to be able to value how far you're coming.
Indeed, one participant found that to write their life story helped to put things in perspective:
· Writing my story probably did it for me.
Humour was mentioned as a key ingredient in the recovery process for a variety of reasons including being a ‘safe way’ of talking about difficult issues, a medium for feeling good and a way of making aspects mental illness accessible to others.
Participants spoke of the positive perspective that the recovery experience gave them and how they felt nourished by their recovery journey, as one participant explained:
· What it's taught me now, is that I don't feel that way anymore. And I love that. It's a complete new experience. I don't believe you ever gain back what you had. I think you just grow into something different. And better.
It was noted that the positive aspect of the journey of recovery is not widely recognised, for example:
· The richness of the journey - people don't go into that. You don't see people going, 'Oh God, I wish I hadn't gone through that'. I think I've been very much blessed.
Most of the participants used the insights from their own recovery journey in their advocacy work in mental health. This advocacy work was seen as further strengthening the recovery process, for example:
· Advocacy has given me a lot of satisfaction. It's wonderful to be able to value how far you're coming. You don't realise that till you see somebody who is just [been diagnosed] and all of a sudden you realise what a hole that they're in, and you remember how hard it was. Yeah... I tend like to think of it as turning your weakness into a strength.
As outlined in Figure 1, the findings presented in this paper focus on the generic factors that participants perceived as facilitating their recovery process. This discussion needs to be set in the context of the notion that the process is protracted and can take many years.
The hope and expectation in sharing the insights from a group of individuals who have found successful strategies for recovery is that it will affirm the way forward and provide inspiration for others on a similar journey. As Hoffman and associates (2000) demonstrate, it is so important for recovery to maintain a positive approach and not give up. Increasingly, this message is being documented in the literature as we move into an era where consumers are showing the way forward to an exciting new world where recovery is not just a word but a very real possibility.